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Intent to Vacate

To the feminist karate union and the screeching
motorcycles on 1st Ave, burnouts a block long.
To the skater punk snapping selfies in the sun,
wearing a scruffed up t-shirt the same shitty
black as oblivion, not smiling, not even the eyes.
And also to the tangueras who drown oblivion
with their bodies, a terrible drone of beauty.
To the morning yogis I love to hate in their spandex
and grace making asanas before light. To impossible,
delicate hijabs framing the face of six-year olds
who skip in to an old brick school. To the kids,
the mother buying frijoles y tortillas for dinner again,
invisible men building and feeding and cleaning
the city to send dollars into walls of casas
they’ll never know. To the inherited, lucky wrench
in the mechanic’s hand, to the boozy cherry
on a toothpick, to the fruit trees no one picks clean,
the cherries and plums and apples. The blackberries
rotting on city brambles. To the spoiled kids, the quiet
kids and the angry kids and the yes kids and the no
kids, to all the kids who haven’t yet met oblivion
but are learning the ways to shape themselves
around it. To the techies who never really know
what to do with their money. And the few who do.

To the bus drivers. To the crackheads, the fishermen
weaving their nets and blackstacking North.
To the woman and her cart on the canal not leaving,
staying, how many days, under a broken umbrella?
To sail boats, to craft ales on sale, to jackhammers,
to cranes. To Seattle, you ache too hard, vibrate
at the seams. Like flint. Like caught breath.
Like NW’s finest weed burning a hole in the throat.
Once the moon was the minute hand, the seasons
the hour. What I miss most is stillness.

Working Too Hard

For five nights a fat banana slug has come to visit me,
chugging up the window, stopping just at eye level.

In front of the chair where I sit to write most mornings,
he sleeps for the night. Or does whatever it is slugs do.

By sun up, he’s gone, leaving in his place a tiny pile of shit.
It’s hard to look past this. Drinking my tea and writing,

imagining this shiny, slimy creature I’ve come to call friend
exposed on a field of glass, making his morning constitutional.

With no real predators—not even the bears or skunks
will partake of him—he appears entirely unworried.

His simple body, tentacles, mantle, anus, upsets me.
How easily it does exactly what it’s supposed to!

30th Birthday Poem

Warm dusks too hot to sip anything
but rum and look north & north & north

like cold nights when the aurora glows.

Meatballs, size of a small river stone
hand curved, roasted & frozen

saved like speckled marbles in a jar.

Cattails bent over their pond
as if signing a mortgage.

Driftwood waving her wild bone
arms at the end of the sea

as if she untangled from nowhere, with
everywhere sprouting from her fingertips.

Boy perched on the rock above the cliffs above the river,
the second his pointed toes depart the rock.

The dive & the cold.
His wet head above the eddies.

The now & the now & the now
like the filly, top lip stretched so far above the brambles,

stomping to ram her fragile adolescent
chest against the fence

as if she could close the last hovering inches
between the taste of blackberries

& empty air.

Light engulfs me now

a bewilderment          I who was merely an afterthought

an obscure thing barely noticed among the giants

naked now to your scrutiny          I who lived surrounded

cloaked in others’ luxury          indistinct and anonymous

did not ask to be seen

what drifted down through their branches

what seeped into my roots

was enough

what seems to you like amputation          disfigurement

was for me my only body

one by one the others taken

their branches tumbling          the forest

disassembled by human hands

[                                        ]

what was left to admire
                    meaningless as jangled

keys          a muscle twitching
aimless                              but alive

nothing recognizable except the blood

none of us wanted to say we were “with” him
when the news          trickled          in
local in the first days
                                                            then the smell of it


how the hand                    on the revolver
was his          and hungry
and the shots

would not be undone

The Citizen

apologies to Wallace Stevens

one must have a mind of silly putty
acquiesce not
interrupt          combust at 35      one leaps
the other lies        deciding’s not for us
one must have a mind
of anecdote not data point        must
never mind the grope
one must have a mind of
antelope        one must have a mind
of wind        of pantyhose        one mustn’t
mind the mess or make a fuss
must mine the hive        believe the lies
one must have a mind      at least one

Shall Not Be Infringed

We dove under a table, my bag
clutched in one hand, your hand in the other.
House rules: no politics. Who had slipped,
stepped aside, maybe only moments? Left
the door unbounced this summer
night? He fired, pointing first
at the other end of the room, shed
one weapon for another. Is that
how we had time to dive? We threw
our bodies down like castoff shoes,
like trash. He walked out. This happened, it
happens, it will happen again, maybe to me,
maybe to you, waking. Down he went
through each room in my house of sleep, from
attic to basement shooting out the lamps
making permanent the dark.


tilted pelvis toward a velvet sky
linted with stars
                              you offer your self
                              as sanctuary
present your softest place to be shined
into                              you tell the night that
                              you have held secrets like black holes,
surely you can take constellations
and the generations that will come

                              after these stars have died
                              will find their way through life
by the stars of your pussy

The Garden

And in that moment
when he saw her
partake of the angel that
was the “forbidden fruit”
of the tree of God,
Adam realized he
was inadequate.
He saw what the woman
pulled from his body
knew long before, that
he was dim and
dirt-made. That the angel
was her own piece of
forever to consume, while
he was merely her
limitation in paradise.
And Adam felt the heave
of less-than like the first
heart that ever broke,
then told Eve to
put some fucking clothes on.


When you ask your mother how you came to be
she will look at you presently but be somewhere else.
Her eyes will light with the warm glows of conception
and you will see in her remembrance that you came
forth from light — pure blinding light. As you continue
reading the story that her face always tells, you will
trail her eyes as they land on the figure of her mortal
husband. And then, just like that, the light will be gone
but your mother will be back with you presently. She
will tell you again with her mouth the answer that her
eyes never seem to corroborate…
                                                                                                           “Your father.”

And the Moon

And the moon, high above
and removed from all,
will decide when to exile her
from eden. When to begin
the ruination of a life. When
to pull rivers from virgin wombs.
And the girl, down below
and under it all
will never question the day
she becomes unclean. Will learn that
some things will never be
her choice. Will see a rock
govern her body
before she ever will.


(for the people of Flint, MI with empty cups and running faucets)

Someone fed them
A story
Of Jesus turning water to wine
Here they heave
From their subsequent thirst

Lies wafer-thin as the body
Lead pours out as the blood

Do this in remembrance
Do this & remember it
Do this & dismember them


我在美白的日子 (On Skin-Whitening Days)





長高了一英寸 長胖了兩公斤
思源 明白愛慕自己


On skin-whitening days
I politely refuse to go out
because I’m afraid of the light
and can’t handle my friends’ glittering lenses
their sympathy and understanding
seems scorching
when what actually kills is in the midst of multiplying cells

Because of love I’ve recently
developed allergic dark spots
it’s a kind of passion
that ages over time
and embeds deep in the skin
a bit of sand polished by seafloor flora
can’t rub away
a lifetime of lines

I’ve heard SK-II makes a facial mask from peeled eggs
and in twenty-four hours it can heal mute dark wounds
it needs to cycle for twenty-eight days
and with wholehearted trust and patience
you can rejuvenate a face
grown old from its travels
but I was born with a sensitivity to eggs
and I can’t forget the question of the chicken and egg
and finally I’m not sure if I should
love you first and then break up or
first break up and then love you again
so finally I decide that both of these skin-protective sequences
should be carried out simultaneously

Of course
I don’t really want
to see you as incurable blackheads or acne
since deep cleaning and bleaching
will bring skin-rending pain
but since I can’t change my face
I can only give up thinking about you

On skin-whitening days
I grow an inch I gain two kilos
with no more insomnia or lack of appetite or listlessness
the skin knows
its origins it knows how to love itself
it can dislodge wrinkles and dark veins
and let the sun usher in birdsong

給電腦的情書 (Love Letter to a Computer)

是的 沒有受過專業訓練的我
——線路繁忙,請按Refresh 按下去突然一屋暗燈


I thought I knew you because
all night and day our breath mingles together
for three years and ten months
my name, gender, resumé, and ideas
have been classified as files and updated at the set time
entered or downloaded according to the mouse
you’ve given me unlimited broadmindedness and broadband
to traverse the up/down left/right horizontal/vertical space
your lovely musical voice accompanies my dancing
your blue screen quits out of emotional interactions
(there’s grass in the lower corner of the screen
in the upper corner there are tiny flowers and dinosaurs)
I used to think we would grow old together
like in the promises of a red and gold menu
but you’ve had your moments of betrayal
secretly conversing with others and making contacts
but also carefully letting me read your intimate notes and codes
until I began to suspect your unruly flickering face
pounding the keyboard with all my suspicious fingers
or bitterly pulling on the loose cords
I pray you won’t ever stare blankly at me again
ignoring every word I type
or casually change the subject to code
until you suddenly shut down and refuse to see me
yes, since I have no special training
I can’t just skillfully make various attachments
——Wrong password, please try again
(you said you would wait for me your whole life
no matter what but what does that
“what” really mean?)
——ERROR, your file has not been saved
(we used to eat together
but that café closed
when the building was torn down)
——This page cannot be opened, please try again in a moment
(just as I planned to send you an email
you sent a message to my fax machine
and with the line busy, neither one could go through)
——The line is currently busy, please refresh the page
and when I refresh it things suddenly go dark
the wall lets off an acrid stench of burning
and when I mistakenly connect my nerves to the system I realize
I was an idiot when it came to computers and love
——“Only those who understand love will live forever!”
even God (if there is) has to snicker and sigh
over this unprecedented oath of alliance.

愛上虛擬情人 (In Love with a Virtual Lover)



便註定不同心 也離居


Yearning like snowflakes
shakes off the twinkling of black and white
not on the earth but in the heart
distorting the high-definition screen
your face is blurred
laughter and tears pulled and warped
like a return to nothingness
I try to catch it
the computer is tepid
and the keyboard has long since frozen into Morse code
unwilling to reveal the truth

Whenever you like is fine
you can come and go as you please
just flip the power on
type in the role’s name
and you’ll arrive as you promised
more punctual than a lover
for a canned conversation
with the preinstalled glint of cold steel staring at the camera
putting on an unwavering smile
this rousing play
that we acted out holding nothing back from to
we’re both on the internet
and the one we love is far away

Not before our eyes
before our eyes is nothing but a pile of dead embers
people leave like a lamp clicking off
these past few years he’s been pale and silent
and the form I once embraced
only gave me a website in the end
promises and best wishes
are sent in infected email
after one begins to love oneself
hearts will separate and live apart
and so with one stroke
I delete his name and password

即溶愛情咖啡 (Instant Love and Coffee)

Translated from the Chinese by Eleanor Goodman

溶掉你 像溶掉我心
發霉 沒有發臭

但網海恢恢 疏而缺漏

貓的尾巴很短 比我的愛念長

狼心 如鐵
溶掉你 像溶掉我心


Recently I’ve fallen in love with instant coffee
dissolving you like dissolving my heart
leaving dark stains
on the walls, clothing, drawers
mildewing odorless
perhaps the caffeine has expired
not even love poetry can keep things fresh

I fell in love with coffee because of Detective Galileo
my heart leaps and hands tremble
but that has nothing to do with love’s homicide case
(who murdered the innocent?)
boldness, suspense
and your whereabouts offline
(your alibi!)
once in a while on the web I’ll discover
someone else with your name
but the internet is vast scattered and uneven
my last note before I die will be like a dismembered corpse
bobbing up and down
it’s better to go offline and climb a long flight of stairs
from the first half of your life to the second

At last I’m on the open patio with the cat watching the sky
the early morning sunlight is wet from last night’s rain
the birdsong is hoarse from the city’s pollution
the cat’s tail is quite short it’s longer than my affection
I let go swiftly and off slips
cat fur and nothingness

I bow to my own shadow and smile
I lift my head to look for a bit of clear sky
but all I see is a dizzying blue curtain
like the flickering of a computer screen
then a ferocious barking drifts up from a lower floor
the sharp yapping sinks its teeth into my senses
a wolf heart like iron
I chase the black cat cursing
my stomach churns
I decide to have another cup of coffee
dissolving you like dissolving my heart

Self Portrait With Abortion and Bee Sting

Last night while watering the garden,
I mistakenly elbowed a yellow jacket
or perhaps it was a carpenter bee

casually bathing in a galaxy

of purple astor. And then, as if
taking the Circle Train home,
we accordioned together vaudeville-style —

our physical margins shaken

by the surface of bright lies.
And through the torn sleeve
of my sweater, I felt the stinger

insert until you stumbled, slow-motion,

into the flowerpot; inert like a lover
who has overexerted himself,
then lies down in the gold husk

of a late July night.

Now all that remains of us is a raised scar,
burning like a silver dollar —
swiftly seen-to with wet tea bags and copper pennies —

the way we tried to exorcise the toxins

from our lives: a blue basin next to the crib
of a sick infant or a vacuum cleaner hung,
then ignored, in the guest room closet.

When you left, I didn’t recognize myself in the drapes.

I took down all the mirrors
from the walls, subsisting on huckleberries
and the machinery of my heart

which came as a continuous surprise —

the new knowledge that
my body could outlast death —
could heal this deep, sharp sting.

Map of the London Underground / Painted on a Miniature Cocktail Tray

From my room I retrace the intricate lace of maps,
trails of saffron and blue. I begin my story

anywhere, pull a thread of burnt sienna
to the Elephant and Castle,

or travel a Circle to the Barbican.
The world submerged makes sense to me —

the scent of a man’s Cadbury, the sound
of a voice asking please do not leave

I savor the place names of stations I have dreamed.
It’s what isn’t here that interests me.

How this trinket tray adores deception —
provides a legend to the Angel,

a lover for the Piccadilly train.
How this late 20th century souvenir

keeper of beach glass, tea bag, one tiny bell
creates more than any cartographer would tell.

I lean toward a stranger, grey eyes reading
mine before the doors next open, slightly

close, before we rise and go —
past a young girl offering Puccini

by the escalator’s puddled edge —
past travelers, erotic and unknown.

How we must forgive a map its half-truths,
its absent streaks of grief,

and arrive in a back-lit glance
to where time for one moment rinses clean.

The Scare Crow

One must have a mind of a gardener
To regard the dirt with thoughts
Approximate to wonder, to live in

Fascination of the earthworm —
Pink hermaphrodite of the jiggling zither;
And to behold the Mrs. Jekyll rose,

To note the light’s addictive sugaring
In sun gold tomatoes
And not to think of quiet

Promises in the winter’s chill and frost,
The past delicious juices, that in time
Attaches bitterness to skin, to rot, then snow —

Which alters the birds predictive packages of shit —
Companion to the gardener who knows
She must garden through the rain and in light snow.


for LaMonte

An ear bud without music
expertly hangs from his collar like a safety line
for closing down the world.
This body, he works so hard to make invisible —
this body, he cannot make invincible —
walks into College English, his head held
towards the floor. Seventeen. He picks the space apart

from classmates. He’s a window, he’s a door —
his golden eye telescopes, examines the air above —
a third eye with visions he will one day learn
to steer: pathway to a Shakespearean atmosphere.
He argues with himself, his professor, in the arc
of a world not yet understood.
He writes 100 sonnets but shows no one.